Life, why do you always trash with my feelings? I don't know how you prepare for it but I know that it's your job to do it, right? I have nothing to say about anything anymore, I have nothing to feel anymore. Then, why do I still yearn for it? The thing I hate the most, to feel and have you trash with those feelings. Having feelings for something is very nice but I can't comprehend why I like it, yet I don't like it. Weird, huh? I know. I'm only saying what's on my mind right now even though I do not understand.. Let me ask again.. You, the person who is reading this, can you answer these questions for me? God knows it but doesn't want me to know.. but then.. forget it. I'll find it out as God want me to. Thank you. Salva nos placere.

See the title up there? YES. MY VACATION IS HORRIBLE AND not so totally RUINED. Here comes the never ending rants.
1. I'm always bored.
2. VIRUS.
3. No laptop.
4. No Photoshop.
5. HOT. It is so HOT here in the Philippines.
6. Insomnia. Yes, I have that cursed disorder. I want to sleep but I can't.
7. No Icon-making.
8. Limited time in watching anime and playing video games.
9. The things that I was looking forward to were canceled.
10. The annoying screams of my lil bro. Gahh.. It made me FREAKING MAD.
11. UMINEKO EP 6 NOT YET DONE TRANSLATING?? ._______________.
12. Dear Parents, Why do I have to give up a space of my room for my cousin's bed?? We could always share a bed. My room is small and your gonna make it smaller? Please be practical .__.
13. My skin.. My skin.. SUNBURRRRNNNNNN!!! DD: sunburn?! i didn't stay in the beach so long!! I only dipped my body in the cold part of the sea and where there is shade for about 20 minutes, and I have sunburns?! I SWEAR I WILL NEVER GO NEAR THE SEA AGAIN. [That's why I hate beaches.]
14. And WHAT THE HELL?! The pool has a heater?! it is not even damn cold. it's hot! HOOOTTT!! then why turn on the heater?!!? stupid resort.
15. WHY DO FATAL FRAME CHARACTERS ALWAYS RUN SO SLOOOOWWW?? so damn slow. Madoka and Ruka From FF4 is even slower than Mayu (who is limping) from FF2. You call that a RUN?!
16. Dear Older Brother, PLEASE DON'T CONSUME MY TIME IN PLAYING VIDEO GAMES!! YEAH! I KNOW YOU WON'T LISTEN TO ME EVEN I SHOUT BAD WORDS AT YOU! HOW COME YOU ALWAYS PLAY AT MY TIME? AND IF I ASK YOU TO LET ME USE THE CONSOLE. YOU ANSWER THIS DAMN THING: "I HAVE ONLY STARTED." WELL, WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?! THE CONSOLE SAYS 4 HOURS! AND ME?!! I HAVE ONLY USED IT FOR 10 MINUTES. I HAVE TO RUN ERRANDS [which are supposed to be yours but you won't to do it because you're lazy] FOR MOTHER AND WHEN I GET BACK, YOU'RE USING IT AGAIN?! ANS SPOUT THAT FREAKING LINE?!
17. Dear Older Brother [Again], I am always frustrated when you're downloading something.. because the connection is so slow. Downloading something for 3 days which i think is 6GB. and then downloading again which is is 6GB also? Well, I'll let that one go since you downloaded FF4 and The Calling for me.
18. Our neighbors hate us for nonsense. Well, I HATE YOU TOO! We have 3 neighbors here because this is an apartment. We are currently renting a house. They keep making up stories and blames us for what happens to their house?! HELLO! We don't even go near you. Because you are sooo ughhh. Seeing you makes my anger overflow.
19. Somethings. Which I am not supposed to blog. It's just too personal.

Hmmm.. I think that is all for now ^^ bwahahaha. it's feels so good to let out all those frustrations, disappointments and anger~

I hate being compared to another person. And i doesn't make me feel good when someone is being compared to me. I feel very uneasy and uncomfortable. Since I too is being compared to someone always. That's why I sympathize to the person who is being compared to me. I don't like how they compare us since everyone has different talents and standards. -vnajbnoananvjvnladbljvnabahbdfj- and I simply hate it when someone doesn't even show a bit of appreciation to me when I do something for that person. I don't know but I also don't like when someone is given the credit when you were the one who did the dirty job. and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FRIEND, ABEL PUNZALAN. :D

Sigh.. I hate i.. I hate it really. When you're being left out, you feel sad and your friends barely notice it. I don't know. I don't have a right to get angry because i feel that it's just me being sensitive or is it not? I wish it is. I don't want to be alone in this world. I don't want. But sometimes... being alone makes me feel like i'm in paradise. I can spend a lot of time thinking and reflecting without someone bothering me. When I'm alone, I spend lots of time thinking and thinking. I don't stop till I find an logical reason for things. For example, why did God created this world? If he created us for the reason to find out what's incomplete and fix it and live a happy life. Or is it the reason... He wanted us to experience love. So, I'll remove the first one. without love, happiness, sadness and etc., our life will be incomplete. [The sounds that I hear is breaking my chain of thought -_-] that's why I can't find out why. My chain of thought keeps breaking and leaving me to start all over again.

Yup.. I am a bad girl :p i am currently sneaking and browsing the web with my eseries nokia phone :D ohohoho~ good thing they still left the router open.. Fuhuhuhu... I am rewatching to aru majutsu no index.. Bwahahaha.. It really is so cool .... ;D whew.. Blogging using a phone is tiring.. I'm not used in texting. Well, i don't really use my phone... -_-