Sigh.. I hate i.. I hate it really. When you're being left out, you feel sad and your friends barely notice it. I don't know. I don't have a right to get angry because i feel that it's just me being sensitive or is it not? I wish it is. I don't want to be alone in this world. I don't want. But sometimes... being alone makes me feel like i'm in paradise. I can spend a lot of time thinking and reflecting without someone bothering me. When I'm alone, I spend lots of time thinking and thinking. I don't stop till I find an logical reason for things. For example, why did God created this world? If he created us for the reason to find out what's incomplete and fix it and live a happy life. Or is it the reason... He wanted us to experience love. So, I'll remove the first one. without love, happiness, sadness and etc., our life will be incomplete. [The sounds that I hear is breaking my chain of thought -_-] that's why I can't find out why. My chain of thought keeps breaking and leaving me to start all over again.